Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Transmutation


Everything that appears, erupting out of the stars, the muddy earth, and the oceans… out of crystalline essence of the moon, out of the very center of your raw beating heart…

All the conflict, the struggle, the emotions, the symptoms, and the heartbreak… the crushed longing, the dying dreams, the reorganization of the way you thought it was all going to turn out…

This is the rich material you have to work with. While it may seem that the aliveness you long for will be found in the eradication of the dark, it is filled with spirit, magic, and meaning. Just behind the veil, underneath the exhaustion of a life of becoming, resurrection awaits.

This resurrection is uncaused. It is of the same substance as the cells of your heart, the synapses in your brain, and buried inside the pathways of your sacred nervous system. It is already here, unborn and undying, and awaiting discovery. Please do not postpone participation in what you already are.

The alchemists referred to this essential substance as this prima materia, the creative energies that you are asked to encounter and transmute as you journey with your fellow travelers along the way. The signs, the symbols, and the messages are emerging in the most unexpected places, inviting you into the core of the tender, the vulnerable, and the raw, raging life within you.

You need not transcend your life, your symptoms, or your problems to know this. It is pure and creative inside the symptom, but this mystery is something our conventional world has lost contact with, tangled in the spell of becoming and have lost contact with the enchantment of imagination. But the modern day alchemists and journeyers of the heart – and the unseen ones and the moon, the sun, and the stars – have come into form to remind us…

“What about my passion,” Rumi asks God. God says, “Keep it burning.”

“What about my heart?” pleads Rumi. God says, “Tell me what you hold inside it.”

“Pain and sorrow,” says Rumi.

God says, “Stay with it. The wound is the place where the Light enters you.”

It is up to you to keep these truths alive in the collective and to catalyze an eruption of love here. Please don’t forget what is most important to you.



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Monday, August 21, 2017

The spell of unworthiness


The fear of being abandoned. The shame in being rejected and not seen as you are. The terror of being alone.

The panic when you allow another to matter. The anxiety that you may become dependent. The crushing disappointment as you realize things weren’t ever really going to turn out the way you thought they would.

These are the great fears that emerge as you wake, sleep, and wander along the path of the heart.

But perhaps the greatest fear of all is that you are already loved, a truth which erupts as the trance of unlove dissolves. For when you are entirely seen and fully held, it is the end of your world as you know it. Life is always seeing you, and holding you in this way.

If you will allow this revelation all the way in, you will never be the same again. You will no longer be able to pretend you are other than radiant and whole as you are, watching in astonishment as the spell of unworthiness unwinds in front of your very eyes.

You will no longer be able to stand back on the sidelines, taking refuge in the old vision that you are unworthy of a life of wild love, creativity, exploration, intimacy, and play. You will no longer be able to stay safe and protected in the cocoon of unworthiness.

While a part of you longs for this sort of shift, please consider the consequences of the death of this ancient dream. Nothing will ever be the same again. Are you prepared for this?To no longer have the companions of unworthiness to travel with will leave you naked, raw, unguarded, and vulnerable. For the beloved wants your burning, your longing, your sensitivity, and your vulnerability. She is not interested in your clear clarity, resolved awakening, and fantasies of being free from future heartbreak. 

While there may always be a part of you that longs for new life more than anything, another part may not be so sure. Please honor the contradictory feelings that you will inevitably encounter along the way. For they are all valid, honorable, and workable on the path of love.

Dare to see that you were never unhealed, that nothing is ultimately missing, and that you are already fully alive. Not after you first heal your past, find your soul mate, wiggle into a “high vibration,” or replace the burning with joy. Not after you wrap it all up, become an “expert” or “master,” become “untouchable” or “utterly powerful,” or transcend your sacred vulnerability. Allow the dream of postponement to end.

Provide safe passage for the unlovable one, the unworthy one, the broken one, and the unhealed one to fall away into the fierce, tender vastness that you are. Honor the service they have provided and allow them to continue their journey back to the stars from which they came. For they are no longer needed in the magic of the here and now.

To let in the implications of this is utterly exhilarating. And completely terrifying simultaneously. One world is ending so that another may appear from behind the clouds of separation. This world is not being “created,” but has always been here, patiently awaiting your participation, longing for the day the spell of unworthiness would be broken.


Sunrise nearby at Brainard Lake, photo by Michael Chilcoat

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Saturday, August 19, 2017

An archaeologist of love


Buried inside even our deepest neuroses are the raw materials of love.

In the tantric and alchemical traditions, those less-than-awakened thoughts, feelings, emotions, impulses, and raw sensations are the prima materia for us to play with and to transmute into pure wisdom essence.

The shit, the piss, the dirt, the darkness, and the failures. The disappointment, the unworthiness, the deflation, the raging shame. The reality that things were never going to turn out the way we imagined. These are the sacred materials we have to work with as alchemists of our own lives.

Hidden within the vulnerable, the orphaned, and the abandoned, life energy is gathering within the crucible. Can you sense it nearby? Can you feel it gathering? Not to harm or to obstruct you, but as allies of integration. As emissaries come to hold the opposites as they surge within you.

There is no greater temple than your raw, tender, whole and shattered heart. There is no mystery vaster than the interior of your own body, where the ascendant and descendant intertwine, where the lunar and the solar dance and play as one.

Go into your heart and find the consecrated material. Excavate it. Travel inside the pathways inside you and see. Listen. Sense. Call on the natural world and the unseen ones to help you. Become an archaeologist of love.

Within the container at the center, the gold is longing to be known, to be touched, to be held, for its true nature to be revealed: that of pure luminosity.

Surround what you discover with the warmth of your loving presence. Flood it with curiosity and awareness. Infuse it with the erupting, unapologetic compassion of the stars.


Photo: from the holding field of Heart Nebula, constellation Cassiopeia

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